Oh shit so I'm fucking happy right now cause tonight the lakers lost to the pistons. So that means that the fucking lakers bought themselves a fucking losing team which is so awesome and I can only pray for the same outcome for the yankees. Also we had ourselves an earthquake here today in san diego, a 5.2 which shook me a little, I was half way out the door when I realized brad was in the shower so I ran back to yell at him and then it stopped thankfully, still a little scary. well we got back from our havasu trip memorial weekend and my birthday and let me tell you, that was so much fun I can't even describe it. As soon as I can I will get the pictures up on here for you all to see. I ended up kicking a boat prop and walking about 2 miles to the hospital to get stitches, but that didnt stop me from going right back to partying, it was a fucking awesome time I will never foget it. Well I quit hot topic and am working at hard rock in la jolla now i think I already told you that but whatever. warped tour is coming up cant wait for that and also 4th of july in san diego which is the best, so hopefully there will be pictures of that coming up on the site soon also. And thats about  all I can think of for now, but I will be back so keep checking in and if you guys have anything you would like me to post up here on the site just let me know and I will do it....anything. alright later.

Music: Andres Segovia

 

Fuck dude people are pissing me off again. Just random people though, like people I dont even know, and its not like they are doing anything wrong or anything, they just fucking bug me and I want to slap them and curse and yell at them and then trip them and run away laughing crazily! anyways, I'm listening to this old school classical guitarist and let me tell you, you think slash can shred this guy can fucking jam, I'm into it, yah thats right I fucking dig it....I like to say fuck for some odd reason haha fuck fucker fucking blahhhhhhh ok I'm going to the beach later...

 

Ok so theres been some shit going on with our computer and it hasnt been working right lately, it has a mind of its own, it works when it wants to...Ummm yah so heres whats been going on with me, I just put in my two weeks notice at hot topic yesterday, because I got a job at hard rock cafe in la jolla, and I'm going to be getting way more hours and about $3 dollars an hour more, so I  might actually have some money to be able to go out now. Oh and I just found out that Taking Back Sunday's new cd is coming out in July, how fucking kick ass is that, I'm fucking ecstatic. Lets see, I'm going to see Avenged Sevenfold this friday which should be an awesome show, I hope I make it out of there alive, then me and the pops are going to check out the Eagles in Las Vegas on the 22nd, oh yah baby thats gonna be the shit. My roomates just bought a 125 gallon fish tank and let me tell yah its a huge mother fucker!!!! Theres gonna be some kick ass fish in there, its gonna be tight, went to a party downstairs the other night, I dont think I have ever been to a party where there was only one decsent looking girl and all the rest were fucking amazingly hot!!!!!!!!!! it was awesome. Ummm yah and thats about it, just been going to the beach and getting ready for memorial weekend in Havasu baby!...oh yah todays Brad's birthday and the poor bastard didnt do anything but study all day, how sad. haha alright I'm out!

 

Wow Ok I have alot of catching up to do. I still work at hot topic and I have moved in with brad, I've been here for a while now its really cool and lots of fun. One of my roomates has moved out heather she was really fun to hang out with and she had a really nice apple bottom booty but her and my other roomate were fighting so she left. Now Jasmin my other roomate is moving out in a week or so, and she is being replaced with Mazur who is a really cool funny pot smoking guy. So I guess wether I want to or not I'm going to be exposed to some mary jane. He says he's going to get me to smoke with him, but that probably wont happen. Lets see oh yes summertime is almost here which means my birthday is almost here june 1st. which means that me and brad and mazur and others will all be heading down to Havasu on memorial weekend to stay in our condo we rented. Its going to be one hell of a good time and I will hopefully have lots of stories to tell and some good pictures to go along with. Ok I'm off for now gotta go work on the tan at the beach. much love kids

Music: Thursday

 

Ok so heres whats up....I work at Hot Topic these days at the Mall in Mission Valley. Its pretty fucking cool. I get sweet ass discounts so I get all kinds of cool shirt for dirt cheap, I can get any concert ticket I want paid for, which is so sweet. Umm I'm finally going to move out of my sisters house and move in with Brad and his roomates Jasmin and Heather. That should be pretty sweet and lots of fun. Halloween is coming up and I'm going to be Joe Dirt I got the mullet wig and I'm growing out my facial hair so I got the whole white trash thing going on. Um nothing else is new. So I'm gonna go watch South Park bye, Jason

 

Music: Classical Gas

 

Whats up. It's been a long time, I'm sorry about that. Ok so here is the low down on whats been going on. I left Needles Ca, moved to San Diego and I am just chillin down here. I've been to Mexico recently, it was the first time I had ever left the country which was a little scary, but it turned out to be an awesome time thanks to my ex step cousin Ame, her crazy friend Kim, her very sexy friend Jenn, My old new good friend Brad and his friends. It was great. I'm hoping to soon be employed at the Hard Rock Cafe in La Jolla. And also hopefully at the Hot Topic in Misson Valley. I'm still single and I'm looking for some cool or uncool people to hang out with. I got some tickets to go see Saves the day and taking back sunday with moneen in october which I cannot fucking wait for. I think i will get some tickets for thrice and thursday also. There are so many beautiful people down here its stupid. Too many sluts though. It's going to be a task to find a good sweet girl here.hehe Alright well Im gonna jam i dont have anything clever to say this time. so see ya oh and to those that have been signing my guesstbook, thank you very much and sorry for not emailing people back but add me to your msn list and we can chat when we are online ok thanks.

Music:Northstar

 

I've been having alot of dreams about ex-girlfriends lately. I think its just a mental challenge or something. Sort of a life challenge. Cause its so easy to go back to something you already know, even if its not the best, its easy cause your used to it and you know what to expect. Sort of like making the choice of leaving or staying. Some people never leave cause they are just go with their normal routine, even if they're not really happy. It's sad really. People are sad. Sad and Stupid. Everyone is pretty fucked up in their own way. I guess you need to just find someone who is fucked up in the same way you are, that way you can be fucked up together and bitch about things together. I feel like being lonely for a while, but not for too long, just a bit. I sometimes think that it would be better to be retarded, sure people laugh at you sometimes but you dont really care your just happy to be alive. And the smallest things make you happy. I think retarded people and babies are the normal ones and all the rest of us are the stupid ones. I saw someone the other day that made me smile. Not a regular smile....a real smile. It felt good, but then that person went away and took my smile. I hope someday that person will come back again, and bring my smile with them, and let me keep it this time. So I guess its a blank face until then. Well I guess I should sleep with my window open for a while so these dreams I've been having can get out, there the kind you want to hold onto sometimes but you know they have to leave. Maybe my imagination is to big...Thats what I get for watching muppet babies all the time in my younger years. Who needs drugs when you have the muppet babies. Jason

Mood:whatever Music: none

 

Fuck dude its been a while, I  kinda feel weird typing to myself. So yah I just turned 21 the other day. I felt like I celebrated my birthday for a week straight. There was alot of drunkeness. I can't be healthy right now, I sure dont feal healthy right now.....its kinda sad that you wait 21 years so you can drink, but once you finally get there your already all boozed out ya know. But oh well. I bought a lowrider bike the other day too. you can see it up above, yah thats me with my hair all did. I got bored. And dont fucking call me benji either assholes. Making some sweet money at work lately, I'm enjoying that, if I can just save it all. I got big plans for San Diego, me and Tim are gonna live it up, its gonna be a great time. Any girls that wanna come and visit dont be scared, come on down. Now any dudes that wanna come your gonna have to call first and ask. Well the times are a changing let me tell ya, its weird how people come and go, then some come back around and others never do, how people can change their whole attitudes on life. You never know whats going to happen. Its so funny I think how you know some people for so long but never really talk to them, then years go by and you hang out with them every weekend. Its a odd thing, making friends that is, and starting relationships, very odd. I wonder just how long it will be, I wonder how quick my attitude will change about girls and relationships once I move, or if it will stay the same or get worse. I wanna know something, how many guys does a girl have to screw to be considered a slut these days? It's had to of doubled in the last 7 years. Is there such thing as a virgin in high school? haha wow. Well I've said enough, I'm just rambling on now. sweet dreams.

Mood: good Music: Brand New

 

Work that ass work that ass....oh sorry. YOu virgin slut! man I'm just out there tonight. I dont have really anything to say. Dude people piss me off or not really piss me off but they just get on my nerves. Just shut the fuck up you know i dont care. Sorry I have major social interaction problems. structural functionalist I people like me have to have problems so that other people who dont feel the way I do can be defined as normal. Symbolic interactionist would say that the people around me or my enviroment that I'm in made me this way. Social conflict people would say that people who are very social and very outgoing create an inequality towards me because I am not like them...fuckers!!!!! I say I just dont like you so go the fuck away! ok sorry i'm probably scaring you guys....I'm really a nice person and easy to get along with. I am just shy at first, so please make the first move or give me some beers.....haha sweet...alright im out.

Mood: whatever Music: none

 

This weekend was fun and interesting. Played some pool, got pretty drunk. Won a 110 bucks in a golf tournament. Saw some women, met some new people, its all good. Ummm yah it was a fun time. And thats basically about it. Spring Break coming up. Hopefully I will be working soon, so I can get some cash in my  bank again. I think I'm just going to ask out random girls this summer and take them to dinner or something just so I can have some company. I dont know. alright I'm out.

Mood: cool Music: Brand New

 

Oh shit fuck! Its been a while, its been a while. Life's not too bad these days. I've been going to school got some midterms this week no sweat. The shave ice shack will be opening soon so I will be bringing in the tips sweeeeeet!!! I helping coach the NHS Golf  Team. I just got done with an archery tournament today I placed 5th overall, not to bad considering I dont practice. I got a hellacious sun burn though and it hurts pretty good right now I wont lie, I'm in a little pain at the moment. I've been working out everyday I need to get ripped (haha) so I can get some ladies when I go to san diego in sept. I'm getting pretty good, not to sound conceited, but I'm proud of how well I'm playing to guitar right for just teaching myself. There are still no women in my life though. I just can't seem to find any good prospects. It would help if I actually looked I guess, but I don't want to put in the effort. I want someone to come to me, and I'm fine with waiting until that happens. So yah I've been kinda a busy guy lately. I wrote a couple more lyrics or songs, but they are really personal and they mention names and stuff and I'm not comfortable with posting them on here yet, cause they are pretty deep, but someday I will share them with you. And whats up with this war its starting to get insane. Man we just need to start kicking ass, we cant lose anymore of our men. I got good friends over there and its so fucking scary, you know. I find myself stuck up against the t.v. day and night. I just find it so interesting, especially since I want to be a history teacher. The coverage is awesome but scary. I dont know though. Alright well I'm gonna jam for now. And hey if you guys took the time to read this, please take the time to sign my guestbook and maybe write me an email, and if you like poetry or lyrics check mine out in the drunken writers corner and leave me some feedback I would really appreciate it. Thanks, Jason

Mood:disturbed Music: Coheed and Cambria

 

I'm just mad at the world right now...Nothing seems to bring me any joy lately. The things I used to love to do, the things that used to bring me pleasure, the things that used to give me excitement, they just arent doing it anymore. And I have no ambition or motivation to go and find new things either. I've been having headaches everyday also which really sucks, but I think its because I've only been eating once a day. Thats another thing, I never get hungry, I have to remind myself that I need to eat. That cant be healthy right...yah I know. Choices, theres another thing, I like to be able to have choices, or options, you know. Well there are no choices or options here, you take what you get which isnt much. School is horrible. The price of books is insane. But I dont want to think about that.....You know, if I had the choice to die a painful death, but be able to come back and be in the 8th grade again, I would do it in a heart beat. Funny isnt it. hmm or not. Whatever I guess I will come back when I have something nice to say.....If there are any extraordinary young females out there, I mean any real special ones, write me a letter would you! thanks

Mood:cool Music:none

 

So its the new year and everything is just the same. Theres no chicks in this town for me, and ummm nothing that I want to do...I'm just passing time I guess and it gets pretty boring sometimes but whatever...when I was hunting the other day I climbed to the top of this big mountain where there were some boulders at the very top....and there was a smaller boulder just balancing on a huge one...I wanted so desperately to push it off and watch it crash down the mountain into the bottom of the canyon and see it crash through trees and barrel through everything in its path....but then I was reminded that it would scare off every living thing in miles so I didnt.....but someday when Im bored I will climb that mountain again and push that boulder off and watch it tumble down the canyon and I will waste in the happiness it will bring to my soul. Dont think Im weird, you know it would bring excitment to your mind, and get the blood to rush through your veins to see such unattained power and destruction. well maybe not, but it would me. I havent written anything in a while...lack of motivation I guess...But it will come around again soon.....alright sleep well kids.....

Mood:hmmconfused/drunk Music:Blink 182

 

mother fucking kids are driving me crazy right now want ing me to play jenny from the block.....and iM drunk so I guess i will play that f0r them....and they siad something is loose...hmmmmmmm andy what the fuck are theses kids talking about......hmmmmmmm nevermind andy is watching sportscenter.....yah and i have to take a pisser.......fuck alreight well snce everyopne is drunkd i guess i wont waste any0one time....alright we are out

Mood:cool Music:Taking Back Sunday

 

So man yah shit I havent been logging in here very much...Yah I get bored of it sometimes...But I just put on like 7 new songs in the D.W.C. I've been meaning to do that but I'm just lazy...so Yah I got all my christmas stuff in the mail...My guitar is sweet...and I got all kinds of kick ass stickers and some other cool shit....Ummm Im learning how to make knives by my grandpa which is pretty kick ass...and I'm doing pretty good in my archery training...dont laugh assholes its cool!!!!! Yah I know what your thinking...what a weirdo dork....fuckers shut up!!! Im unique....well school is over pretty much...I have a final on wednesday but its a fucking joke its so easy I dont even have to study.....And hmmm lets see thats about it ok well Im leaving now....And leave me some messages man...shit if you take the time to look at this you can at least leave me a message!!!!!!!

Mood:cool Music: Tom Petty

 

Ok so I havent written in a while...I suck, I'm such a slacker I havent gone to school the past three days either...Well I mean shit you know the semester is almost over and fuck I'm tired of it man...Plus I've started my journey, my quest for the olympics...yah man, I've started my training and its starting out a little rough, but its cool it will all come together. Oh and I'm excited about tomorrow cause all the stuff I ordered for myself for christmas will arrive here tomorrow. SWeeT Ass! I ordered a bunch of stickers cause I have this insane obsession with stickers and I ordered a shirt a cd a necklace and a squier blink guitar cause I thought it looked cool and thats about it. Hmmm I think there was a couple other things but I dont remember. My sideburns are back thats kinda cool. I think there is some scandalous shit that might be going down with the mexicans...And ummm nothing else really to say. I've been writing alot but I dont think I will post it...maybe I will some of it. My mom made me drive her to this ghost town and made me let her take pictures of my with her camera one day cause she was bored....I will put them on above this and thats about it .....ok bye

Mood:good Music:taking back sunday

 

Fuck man I shaved off my beard today right and I didnt want to shave off my sideburns I wanted to keep them cause I've had sideburns for like 4 years now.....But I got the bright Idea of trying to make them look different and so I tried to make them look cool and one turned out bitching but then i fucked the other one up so I had to shave them all off...and so now I look really really weird to myself and I hate it....so now I have to wait till they grow back...it doesnt take long but still I look weird...anyways I went to San Diego this weekend and it was sweet, I fucking love it there its awesome... I had to come back though which sucked and now thanksgiving is coming up and i fucking hate thanksgiving with a passion. We better have a good turkey bowl though, shit we probably wont even have one. Dude I havent gotten drunk in like 2 weeks...thats good, or I dont know whatever...I wanna beer though haha. Did I say I lost 30 bucks at the casino the other night...it was fun losing it though..haha alright I'm out laters.

Mood:good Music:white stripes

 

Lets see....I just watched Hannibal....it was pretty good. I liked the settings.....Anyways I just found out that I like my wine just very slightly chilled....cause I had always thought I would like it better really cold for some reason like beer you know.....but oh no no no just very slightly chilled is the best. UmmmmI hope I do something fun this weekend. I think I actually feel like being social. Hmmmm ok maybe not I think I just wanna get a buzz like always and thats about it....I dont care if anyone is there or not...haha...I know I suck. whup de do...Ok I'm bored Im out of here.

 

 

Mood:sweet Music: taking back sunday

 

So I havent checked in in a couple few days. Not a damn thing has been going on man. Tony gets drunk now, its fun. Ummmm yah nothing really to say at all...My beard is coming along very nicely I'm very very proud. Once its all done maybe I will get a picture up of me and my beard.haha Yah so I think thats gonna be about it for now.....I will never ask if you dont ever tell me, I know you well enough to know you'll never love me.

 

Mood:agittated Music:Taking Back Sunday

 

I just got done watching Joe Dirt. I fucking love that movie its hilarious. Anyways, I didn't do shit today. Really I did nothing at all except watch t.v. and let the dogs out every once in a while, then I went to spanish class and me and Tony talked the whole fucking time and the teacher never paid any attention to us whatsoever and  we left early. Then I cooked dinner and watched Joe Dirt. Oh and I learned how to play Drive by Incubus today so that was the highlight of my day. I'm kinda pissed off about something that someone told someone haha yah I don't wanna mention names, I know its not like anyone reads this anyways, but whatever. I really don't even know why the person brought it up, but its really kinda fucked up to say. Whatever dude the only thing I can think is that they felt I might have been somewhat of a threat to their situation at the time, which is stupid. It doesnt really matter for this time, but it makes me wonder if thats the only time or not. I think I'm going to write a book. Yah I am starting hmmm maybe tomorrow, we'll see. But fucking Taking Back Sunday kicks some ass! Best friends means I pulled the trigger, best friends means you get what you deserved!

Mood:satisfied Music: none

 

Well my weekend was pretty damn fun. Went to Hesperia and as soon as I got there I started getting ready for the Halloween party. Started drinking, cuz Ame came over went and got her ready, Caitlin dropped by and then we rolled to the party and just partied it up. Got a pretty good buzz on. I have to give props to Uncle Dave cause the house looked tight. Next day slept all day, then got up and started in again. Aunt Sandee and Brad's friends came over with the high tech karioke equiment and we drank and karioked it up.....You know I hit it up with Tom Petty on the karioke too hell yah. Then went and chilled with Boomer for a bit. Too bad my cuz was acting immature for the next two days cause I didnt even get to hang out!!!!!!!!!But whatever dude. It was a cool trip. It was cool to get out of the town for a weekend and chill and party it up. Now my sis is coming down this next weekend and thats always interesting. So thats about it.....ummm yah ok I'm out...gotta go watch Joe Dirt...love that shit man..........a quote from this weekend that I borrowed from Tom. "shit man I just came up here to relax, I don't need your fucking drama." haha sweet...

Mood:well Music:none

 

Well tonight was kinda cool. My friend the tiger got wasted tonight due to the sudden absence of a certain friend of the opposite sex.haha I think he might still be at the bar....sweet!!!!! But anyways I'm off to Hesperia tomorrow to hopefully have a good time and see some old friends, so that means I wont be back here to post till sunday but when I do hopefully I will have some sweet stories to till. So till then I'm out. laters

Mood: alright Music: Saves the Day

 

Ummm well I missed our softball game tonight cause of biology class. I'm pissed about my health class, I know I'm going to have to take it over just cause the college office people are idiots. I'm having to fill out applications for university's and they suck. Tomorrow is halloween and I dont really care. I'm mad cause people have been arguing with me lately....Actually just girls have been arguing with me. Even some chick I dont even know was talking to me on the net last night and she started arguing with me about how I need to change my attitude. I was like who the fuck are you to tell me what I need to do, you dont even know me or why I am the way I am or why I feel the way I feel so fuck off! I'm not an angry person but people who preech to me about my life piss me off. Its my life, I will live it how I want. Anyways, I cant wait to go to Hesperia this weekend, hopefully it will be a good time, I'm sure it will be! Can't wait to see Ame. Shes crazy and my type of person. Let me out! Let me breathe and let me see what I've been missing since I've been pissing my life away all day everyday for sometime now.........

Mood:content Music: Unwritten Law

 

This last weekend was ummm the most fun I've had in a while. Alot of my friends came down. Lets see Boomer, Manuel, Erica, and Amanda. I basically just got hammered on friday night and ended up talking to Erica for hours till the sun came up. Slept till 2 the next day and tried to recover. Then Boomer and Manuel came over and chilled for a while and then we got ready for the Halloween party. I dressed up like a greaser like from The Outsiders like pony boy. Then we went to the party hung out and I wasnt going to drink, but that never seems to happen whenever I say that. So I drank alot and pretty much drank myself sober. Ended up being the last one at the party, just me and Amanda and she ended up falling asleep when I was trying to talk to her. haha So I left walked up High School hill and called up Tony. He picked me up and we went to Rita's where I drank more and chilled with Andy until he passed out and then Tony took me home and I got there at 7:15 for the second night in a row. You know I always wonder what people think when I talk to them, you know just me and them. Cause sometimes i will wake up the next day and be like what the fuck was i talking about last night, or wow I am a real odd ball sometimes. But you know I still enjoy myself even if they dont. So heres to me!

Mood:just fine Music:none

 

Well today was boring pretty much. I didn't do anything all day long as usual. I just got done finding out what band I am. I am Rufio. Its this site that asks you questions and then it tells you what band you are from a list of this persons favorite bands and that person has some very good taste in music I might add. It was fun. It was the most exciting thing I've done all day. Hmmm ok thats it I'm tired I'm outta here. Oh and I'm happy to say they caught the snipers today. Fucking nut cases, they are going to burn in hell!

Mood:agitated Music:Something Corporate

 

The days go by really fast here and I think thats the only thing that saves me. I mean sure I could get a job and make a little  bit of money, but then I would just be more miserable becaue I would have to be around people that annouy me and I would have to talk to people therefore I would be mad all the time. I just hate to bullshit. If I have something to talk about then I will talk, if I dont then I dont wanna just talk about anything or I dont wanna feel like I have to talk. I'd rather think to myself. But I'm going on a weekend vacation next week. I'm going to take off to Hesperia and hang out with my cousin for a while. She makes me laugh and shes weird like I am so I enjoy her company. Hopefully Caitlin comes up too, that way we can punk each other and make each other feel bad, its all good fun. And of course I get to drink with Aunt Sandee and Brad which is always entertaining. Hmmm I still have to get through the rest of this week and next first. And it smothers me in flames that lick and scorch my face, as the smoke reaches the sky.....now I'll burn for you tonight!

Mood:Annouyed Music:finch

 

Im so fucking annouyed with the world man. The fucking community college I go to is so unorganized they cant even get me my work and Im going to flunk a pathetic health class cause they cant get their shit straight. And my parents yelling at me to get a job, they are acting as if i ask them for money everyday  or something, well hey you know what i dont and im not broke dammit. I need to leave here and start a life. I'm wasting valuable life here. I actually showed some anger today it was scary I yelled at my dad cause he was yelling at me to call the college and straighten things out and I flipped out cause it shouldnt be my resposibility to call the teachers and tell them to give me my work. So i got mad and yelled. YOu guys dont understand I never get angry. Well I did and it made my side hurt so bad when i yelled. I have major problems. fuck im tired and i hate everyone, so whatever i will write again when i feel better.

Mood:annoyed Music:New Found Glory

 

This weekend has fucking just pissed me off man. I think its because its homecoming weekend so alot of people I used to go to highschool with come back, and I really dont like 90% of them and I hate about 75% of those. Fuck then its just the fact that I live here and it just brings me down. Everything is just pissing me off. And what the fuck dude why do people have go around and just shoot random people? What the fuck! I mean you can at least shoot someone like a rappest or a drug lord or something I mean shit. I wish I could have some time with this person. I would brush him down with a wire brush and then pour salty lemon juice all over him. ahhhhh I'm so annoyed,shit and I know I spelt that word wrong and thats making me mad too. I thinks its supposed to be spelt like this *annouyed* maybe not, who fucking cares though. It would be so nice to win my ten team bet tomorrow so I could move in January. I'm tired of being bored and lonely and depressed and not motivated shit. I'm outta here. "I've never been so lost, I've never felt so much at home so write my folks and throw away my keys."

Mood:? Music: H2O

 

I just got back from my softball game and I'm mad cause I popped up the only time that I got to bat so yah I'm mad. But we won. I guess I shouldnt have drank those bud lights before hand huh. oh well. Tim's coming on friday thats always exciting when that guys down. But homecoming is this weekend for the high school so that means all the people that I dont like from back in the day will be here. I really dont want to see anyone man. I should go out of town. I would if Tim wasnt coming. I have jury duty tomorrow too and most people would be mad that they have it, but I think it will be kinda cool. And I'll get 15 dollars a day which will pay for my bets for this week haha. And what else...I aced my bio mid term which wasnt hard. Shit I cant wait to go to SD. Damn and I wanna get dirty with Christina Aguilera too and Lizzie McGuire. Oh wow I'm outta here!

Mood: asi asi Music: Slick Shoes

 

Wow...last night was pretty cool. I went over to Andy's house at like 10:30 and we got a 18 pack and just started drink to celebrate his birthday with is today. And them I called my cousin and I really feel so bad for her. Caitlin is gone and she has no one now. She really scared me last night and I really just wanted to fucking move up there right then just to be there for her. I like it there, but she will be ok, she's really tough. But anyways after that man me and Andy just got really drunk and I started calling people and I swear I think I talked to more last night on my cell phone than I have ever talked in my life. It was cool though. Thats one reason I like to drink is because I break out of my shyness and I actually communicate with people and I actually socialize a little bit. Then we ran out of beer so we mixed bacardi limon and southern comfort and gatorade and downed that. Then I guess I hadnt had enough so I broke my cardinal rule of drinking and took a shot of tequila from vinny mac's room and then i took a lipper which is really sick I was way too gone but hey its all in good fun when your celebrating with your best friend right. Then we went to Dennys and got hooked up with some free food which is always sweet. And then we ended up going to the hotel 6 and talked basketball with b.b.bary for like an hour and  a half until 5 in the morning. Then we started to walk home but ended up in dennys again and we got a ride home from a friend who just happened to be at dennys at 5 in the morning which i thought was really weird. I felt like I was in a dream man. But I'm happy cause I got to watch Lizzie McGuire today and Even Stevens too. I guess you can tell I'm in a good mood cause I wrote alot. But its wearing off now. I want to move to san diego. shit i need a job. whatever dude. homis werrryu maket.......whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!!!!! you like to see homos naked? haha i love that part. ok bye

Mood: content  Music: taking back sunday

 

Well I got back last night from the Grand Canyon. I killed a turkey it was sweet. Fucking turkeys...Anyways I lost my bets today cause the damn Raiders can't beat the shitty Rams. I was pissed, but the Jaguars lost too so oh well. Next week better be better. I'm kinda mad cause I got a letter from the college saying I'm flunking health. I've done all the work they've given me and so that means the damn school isnt sending my work out so I have to go have a talk with them tomorrow. I'm going to bitch them out good. I feel sorry for my cousin cuz her only friend got kicked out of her house and had to move which sucks cause Caitlin is cool as fuck and I miss her too. I think she will be back though. I need to go on a vacation to Hesperia I think and then Mission Beach. Soon, if I hit my bets next weekend I will go. But I'm out for the night.

Mood: content  Music: Something Corporate

 

I just got back from my softball game. We won again. I played shortstop today. thats the first time I've played in 7 years and I got another base hit so that was cool. I didn't make my fire pit today so I'm kinda dissapointed in myself. Tommorrow I'm leaving to go kill a turkey in the Kiabab. I fucking hate turkeys with a passion and I hate thanksgiving too, I'm totally against it. Lizzie McGuire looked really hot on her show today. I know I'm a disney channel pedophile but oh well thats what you get for living in this town for so long. Some people actually wrote me today it was cool. I like to get feedback from my writing it makes me feel like at least someone cares a little bit, enough to comment on them. I hope I win a big bet sometime between now and december, so that I can move to San Diego and actually start my life. Whelp we will see if its meant to be or not.

 

Date: 10-8-02   Time: 10:53p.m.

Mood: whatever  Music: Dashboard

 

Today I did nothing again. I went to lunch at KFC and it sucked ass. I stepped in my dogs shit tonight too, barefooted at that. But I was thinking and I just told my sister that I would rather step in dog shit barefooted than step in a puddle of water on the kitchen floor with a sock on I fucking hate that shit man! Well tommorrow I'm going to make a fire pit in my back yard so that when it gets cold i will build a fire and make smores and drink and play the guitar around it. Maybe someone will join me and sing along or something i dont know but regardless im going to do it. Oh man well with that I think I will just go to bed or something.