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Here are some of my lyrics. Please tell me what you think. Write me an email or something
This is just a poem I wrote...there is a picture I did that goes with it, but I dont have a scanner so I will try to get it on here later.
A Tree Of Losses
I hang my losses from a tree and pierce them with a sharp branch
To let the stinch air out in the breeze
And I'll stare at this tree until my eyes dry up
Just look not touch for fear that my soul might rot
Its odd that what should be forgotten is still dear to me
Whats not is the thought that I make this what I want it to be, what I want to see, what is honesty?
And I keep these here not only to torture myself
But to remind me what is real, pain, sickness, and filth
Cause I'm a worrier, always nervous about this world
Who's there? what was that? How's the girl?
And please branches don't break, and please my heart don't ache, and please bones stay strong, and please brain keep my memory long
Long enough to remember what it was that made these losses so important to me
Important enough to keep and to hang from this tree
The feelings that were felt before they were deflated
The beauty that they held before it was faded
So I waste in my losses with an uneasy grin
And I'll drown in my thoughts of regretful sin
Because its necessary to remember how it feels to lose
To truly know how good it is to win
By Jason Parnell
Ok kids from time to time I like to just start writting and not think about it just let it flow and whatever comes out comes out so here is an example, its fun you should try it you never know what your mind will come up with and you can get some good ideas for future writing.
A Free Writting
MMM just a little pain for pleasure,
Poke me baby, stick me good,
Hit it just right, do it like you should
Take me away to dreamland
Float me, fly me, bus me, or drive me
Either, or, anyway I'll go
Everyway you know,
Oh yah all the ways that you show
So shove your tongue down my throat
And I'll slide my insecurities right up your chute
Look at those stars just a shinning so bright
Reminds me of my teeth, them glimmering white, ok not quite
Oh just shush me
Its funny...an attention span so short
A brain cell away from being geniously smart
Its ok nothings better than a smile
Mmm take me back to you and me for a while
Pulsating
Frustrating
Tribulation on trial
Oh and I want to
Wanna be on you
In your file
So screw me, fuck me, lick me while you suck me
And I'll turn into a tornado on speed
Spin round and round
Split your tight lips with the greatest of ease
No need to say please
Catch me on the flip side
Wow watch that disease
Haha...j.k. baby
Ok its time to retreat
Off with the head
Its time for sleep
By Jason Parnell
Nice Guys Lose
I got a grim straight face with a smile of sin
and a hole in my chest from where the bitch broke in
She left with a bag full of guts and an organ I used to feel with once
And used it to put on display for her friends to see what she got from me
So now its a lonely place on this dark side of town thats ten miles away from the closest place to drown...
So now I'm leaving...so if you need me... I'll be....
I'll be sinking slowly in this river, weighted down by a head full of beer and its silent tonight...
Like a happy memory of the nights we slept
in the same bed when the sheets got wet
And in the morning there'd be a shower full of steam, on a cold day,
Your bodies all the heat I'd need, but now I'm freezing....Yah its freezing...
Cause I'm a lover not a fighter, and shes a teaser and a Liar...
Now I'm being stalked by a shadow that carries much guilt
I got a false sense of pride from the lust that she dealt
And bored games will never ever be the same
These old cartoons only make me want to scream
So when depressions lost its high where do I go from there
When sadness isn't fun anymore what is there left to feel...
Can you tell me...Can you find me...I'll be...
I'll be sinking slowly in this river, weighted down by a head full of beer and its silent tonight...
Like a happy memory of the nights we slept
in the same bed when the sheets got wet
And in the morning there'd be a shower full of steam, on a cold day,
Your bodies all the heat I'd need, but now I'm freezing....Yah its freezing...
Cause I'm a lover not a fighter, and shes a cheater and a liar...
And the big bad wolf had grandma's eyes,
The three little pigs had a predator in disguise
Just like the hot girls always have the people they use
And its the nice guys they always seem to choose
Yah its the nice guys that always seem to lose
Yah nice guys lose...
By Jason Parnell
E. Lost-the T, D. Nose- the E
Yah it might make me want to feel you
Sometimes make me want to kill you
But isn't that what love does?
Mix up emotions like a hard bacardi buzz,
Mmm... I feel it now my hands around your neck
No wait thats your hands around my dick,
ewwww either way it feels sooo good
Can't we both stroke it till something comes up
I know you like the taste of....
Come on keep it clean, you dont have to lie to fuck me
I thought I made that clear in the beginning
You screw me, I screw you, then you screw him and then my best friend
Hey why not then we can all have something in common
And ohhh my grip is getting stronger
I think youl'll be done in before I am
Are you ready to go?
Dont forget to swallow.
And if love is what you've given to me
Then death is what you will recieve
And I'll be right there with you till the end
To make sure you never stop suffering
And I hope my job will never be done
To make sure you'll be in pain forever on.
By Jason Parnell
White Blankets Black Sheets
Approaching a door with three locks on a house with no windows
The grass is still green but crawling with ants
Cracks in the sidewalk spell out answers of the past
And its white blankets black sheets for tonight
Shh... be quiet, just whisper, dont tell
Keep this alive like a captivating spell
And make the bed with white blankets black sheets for tonight
Cause one day I'll come outside and stand against the edge of the light
Chase and capture a thousand fireflys so I can see the beautiful look of their fright
And as the moon dives into the sea I will make the bed with white bankets black sheets for tonight
And its here where we hang the dead from trees, slice and insert splints in the knees
Let all hang to dry, Keep them outside
But a Storm is on the way, planning to disrupt our parade
And on comes the breeze releasing an infectious disease
A whirlwind aiming for a pile of leaves
Leaving us to clean up the spill
Clean, Clean up the stench of an old kill
And its white blankets black sheets for tonight
But I know what we need in a way they never will
Too hard to tell, if its possible to feel what we feel
Heartache with a bone break, and before death we burn
Like the fireflys through the dark to our bed we will return
And I'll be sure...to tuck you into white blankets black sheets for tonight
Jason Parnell
What I dream to
Cause this all we need, you and me and five bucks
And we'll make the world stop
A window without a shutter and a closet full of stocks, of course a two-way highway that never ends, yah a road without a block
Thats right our freeway never ends, never any construction, never any cops, now we wont ever stop
But theres no gas, no oil, but theres a clock
And we're not stuck here, we wont stay here, no we wont be bought
And you've heard this all before, I'm afraid that I've been caught!
I want to end this, I want to cleanse us but what I thought we are we are not
What we are is the way your hair falls
The way your leg curls around mine, when we combine
I only got two touches to your entire lifetime, but thats fine
Its worth the waste of me to learn what it takes to make us chime, I guess it just takes time
And it took me to see through, letting me leave you
Letting me be true, to a not so forgiving kind
But your what I cling to, what I dream to, your what a I sing to, yah your what I think of when I die!
And your not supposed to know that, so please dont show it when I cry.
Jason Parnell
Black Veins and Blood Clots
(Tales of the Man Eating Dolls pt. 1)
And they will take and eat from my heart until all hope is gone
My lungs will deflate as they send my last breaths from below
Its now too far progressed
You can hear gurgling sounds made from the air struggling to get through my blood clogged throat
And this is what I've come to
A soon to be corpse without broken bones
And still they consume the teardrops of blood that hang from my blackened veins
It energizes them
Revives their power to inflict pain and remain the source of my decomposure
But my torture will not soon be over
I can only pray that the hardened black tip of my heart will fall and strike one piercing its tip through their skull
Marking my revenge against the decietful dolls who have ended my soul
If I was to only be so lucky I would have a slit throat
As it is its my heart thats been attacked
Bitten and beaten still sucking it dry because in there had lyed some good
But its ruined now
Protected from love by black veins and blood clots that seek only lust and know nothing of trust
Sacred was my organ once
Split now down the middle so it can never again be whole
Each crack is a
A symbol
A memory
A mark
Left behind from lessons learned
As my eyelids drop
As the body goes numb
A light shines from within
It shows me where I am
Deep inside loves purgatory
Where escaping is slim
So I'll take my fall and live in thier confinment
Jason Parnell
Burning the Leaves of Blood
(Tales of the Man Eating Dolls pt. 2)
Rake up the leaves of my blood
Crush, collect, and bag them up
Or you can set them ablaze
Watch blue and black flames rise to the sky
Find the site pleasing to your eyes
Breathe in the Autumn born air
Waste in the stinch of my flesh
Oh how you love the smell of a white rotting corpse
Gather the ashes
Mix them with liquid to harden it up
But its not enough
You polish and wear me as jewelry
A trophy of trust
You took from my love
Recycle the rest of my remains
Drop them in the bath and scrub your body clean
Burn my bones for incense
Then reminess how you watched as my heart changed colors
From living to dying
Sticking to falling
Hard matter to dust
Fucking
Loving
And
Lust
With wicked grin on your face
You dress a plastic body that carries no heart no name
Not good for a fucking thing
Except playing games
So take it and drink it and let me waste away
Spending my souls final days wondering how dolls came to overpower my fate
Making fine incisions in places where fountains burst up
To use for universal sexual make-up
And I scream out for days of June
A chance for a moments of truth
Jason Parnell
Retard Me this one is about sex! yah! Lets here it for sex!
3 o'clock I still cant sleep
science fiction fucked up freaks
Needles weather still dried heat
Add sweat and tears to make wet sheets
And I'm the hero of the day
Saved myself from not having pain
Kept you close to keep me away
Let you talk so there'd be nothing to say
Rest your head on a heavy pillow case
Keep it dark make a silly face
Sing a lulla by sweet sling blade
Get static free get yourself made
4:15 running down the freeway
Left turn performing on center stage
Fat lip and black eye from what'd you say
So this time make it right make it stay
And now I'm the hero of the day
Saved myself from not having pain
Kept you close to push me away
Let you talk so there'd be nothing to say
Retard me before I go to sleep
Retard me again when I wake
Retard me with your soothing stinch
Retard me with your liquid felt
Cause I'm the hero of the day
Saved myself from not having pain
Kept you close to push me away
Let you talk so there'd be nothing to say
But let you retard me again cause I'm weak
By Jason Parnell
Too Far To Find
Where are the times before we fell apart
Your supposed to move me in ways I cant feel
Something different from being pushed away
When kisses never caused the lips to bleed
When looks werent filled with harmful intentions
Now just memories there like a fingernail cut too short
You shot me in the head to make sure my heart
Could still feel the pain you love to bring me
But we used to kiss each other goodnight
And we'd make love under the moonlight
But now your fucking crazy
Yeah your fucking crazy
(lost in your mind)
Your fucking crazy
Yeah your fucking crazy
(too far to find)
Meet me by the river with a blanket
Stumble down the walkway smoking a cigarette
How can you move me when you cant support yourself
Cry tears that taste sweet, no more faking
Think back to the 4th of July and
The sweat that came from inside
What happened to the heart you used to have
What happened to the face that never lied
Cause we used to kiss each other goodnight
And we'd make love under the moonlight
But now your fucking crazy
Yeah your fucking crazy
(lost in your mind)
Your fucking crazy
Yeah your fucking crazy
(too far to find)
Lost in your mind and your too far to find...........
Lost in your mind and your too far to find...........
Lost in your mind and your too far to find...
(I can feel you searching for some way to hurt me)
Lost in your mind and your too far to find...
(But I hear you screaming at night how you miss me)
I can fell you searching for some way to hurt me
But I hear you screaming at night how you miss me
Miss me.......Miss me.......Miss me.............................
But now your fucking crazy
Yeah your fucking crazy
(lost in your mind)
Your fucking crazy
Yeah your fucking crazy
(too far to find)
Its late now, dont forget to say your prayers
And take one last drink with your bottle of pills
Look in the mirror, kiss yourself goodnight
And fall asleep under your last moonlight
Cause your too far to find, and its too dark to try
Gone too far to save, so I'll let you die
By Jason Parnell
Feel Good Gasoline
I'll ease my mind with a drink
let my blood thin, feel my eyes relax and
sink back in, then enjoy the warm wave
flowing over my skin
This is my tranquility, my epitome
my own personal symphony
A numbness feeling of ecstacy
A release from whats pressuring me
My feel good gasoline
So I ease my mind with a drink
thats spiked with the presence of a party
even when I'm all alone
Its a fearless, powerful concoction
An insomnia healing, headache causing malfunction
And you dont like it but it fits me
This is my tranquility, my epitome
my own personal symphony
A numbness feeling of ecstacy
A release from whats pressuring me
My feel good gasoline
Sometimes I need to let go
travel out of my own
You say that its bad for the throat
But you dont want to be here when I dont
So I'll...
Just take a sip
of my feel good gasoline
the one thing that keeps you staying
the one thing that keeps me sane
By Jason Parnell
Dont get scared kids...theres a little hate expressed in this one! haha
Send the hate to you
I want to fucking snap your neck trick
Your such an annoying bitch
You know just how to piss me off
No one wants to hear all your drama
Razor blades are all I have to offer
Slice your throat so you cant speak
And so I send this hate to you....
Ohhhhh just shut your mouth girl
I wish you'd drown girl
you smother my last nerve...
I wish you'd die girl
I love to see you cry girl
sophicate your lungs...
You deserve to burn for an eternal lifetime
Your sins were twice mine
And in the end you will pay
So spread your legs some more
Keep up your rep as a whore
And I will bless you with my hate
And I will send this hate to you!
Ohhhhh just shut your mouth girl
I wish you'd drown girl
you smother my last nerve...
I wish you'd die girl
I love to see you cry girl
sophicate your lungs...
And now I'll bury you with my hate!
By Jason Parnell
Your So Giving (know what I mean)
Just leave me alone trick
I cant stand looking at you anymore
So have a nice life
Oh spare me with the cursing
You think foul words from your mouth are going to hurt me now
The damage was already done
its over and your unemployed
You still got your favors though
Dont you
you always did
Know how to act, your a real team player
keep everyone happy, dont let you down
not again
gester to me then...its gonna be different
you never were good with words
action was always your strenght
and you loved to brag
know what I mean...
You loved to brag when I would beg
but tables turned, your begging me to stay
Giving a written confession
Choking in your tears on your knees to my face
Realization is something you should envy
and now you want sympathy...spare me!
I think its safe to say I hate you
you with your silly little laugh
And why you screaming your name at that girl?
you know thats bad for business
Giving up your bragging rights
for something you did
How considerate...a model citizen
You got my vote for mvp....
cause your ohhh so giving
Yes you know what I mean....
You loved to brag when I would beg
but tables turned, your begging me to stay
Giving a written confession
Choking in your tears on your knees to my face
Realization is something you should envy
and now you want sympathy...spare me!
By Jason Parnell
Some Advice (about those girls you know)
No, don't... dont do it again
Open yourself up just to be shut down
Made a fool of, the dork of the town
Yah...So dont...Cause its not worth it,
But it seemed so perfect, that you had to let her know
She was the one that you loved so..
So you told her, told her that you loved her
Told her there was no other, girl that made you feel
That special way she made you feel...
Then she smiled and she said...
I think that we should just be friends
I think this thing we have should end
I dont feel we're getting anywhere
Theres nothing left for us to share...
I think that we should just be friends
I think this thing we have should end
But I dont want things to get weird
So keep in touch kiss kiss bye dear
So no, dont do it again,
Cause all those girls you think you know
Arent the girls you think you know
And I know...
I know that there hotties,
I know they got such nice bodies
But theres one thing you should know,
Your not the only one they'll show
And just when you think its time
She'll leave you at the drop of a dime
She'll say...
I think that we should just be friends
I think this thing we have should end
I dont feel we're getting anywhere
Theres nothing left for us to share...
I think that we should just be friends
I think this thing we have should end
But I dont want things to get weird
So keep in touch kiss kiss bye dear
And now your...
Tying straw wrapers in knots till one rips just right
Wishing she was thinking about you tonight
Looking over notes she wrote to you in the past
Thinking of ways you could've made it last
But in last...She said...
I think that we should just be friends
I think this thing we have should end
I dont feel we're getting anywhere
Theres nothing left for us to share...
I think that we should just be friends
I think this thing we have should end
But I dont want things to get weird
So keep in touch kiss kiss bye dear
By Jason Parnell
You Left
We let go of our grasp on the world and fell straight up into the December sky and headed towards the first star we could find...
Do you remember the feeling we felt when it was all over?
The way we embraced the fact that you and I were different from the others and how our bond connected us in a way no one would ever understand...
That was the beginning when the fire was small but burned brighter than ever...
How clever our plan was to make it all work...
I knew it was going to work...
And then you left..
How did you know that it was your time to go?
And why didnt you tell me? How was I supposed know?
I wasnt prepared and so Im angry now...
Cause you left me now and so Im miserable now...
Im so miserable now without you.......
Jason Parnell
"Friend"
This has nothing to do with that, this is about me and you
Before they ever entered our minds we walked the streets
Did you forget how to walk or are you lost and just cant find the way?
Cause your strolling down alleys now kicking cans that you used to drink from and breaking glass you once looked through
Sorry "friend" but you took a wrong turn
You see streets turn corners but keep on going
Alleys only go so far then dead end and now its showing
So rerun through your mind, remember, think hard, come on try, yah dont lie you've never stopped thinking about it and it must have taken over your mind cause now your following what you once feared your own would follow
If you can beat em' join em' right...
You weak hearted, worried minded, pathetic soul
I had your back, then you turned on mine
You tricked my trust and told me lies
You poor boy youll be haunted for the rest of your life
Everytime a "friend" will come around youll hide the knife, but this is the life you picked and Im the "friend" you tricked remember that...
Jason Parnell
The Scarring
Im dreaming so sound sleeping
Thinking of what Im feeling...and
Losing my time your stealing
Wishing I was more appealing to you...see these
Set fixtures on walls with pictures (yours)...picture
Me waiting to hear the words you wont be saying...those
Timely lessons learned with agressions...and
Lifes tough passions healed by reactions...in
A world where my own confessions...can
Turn into my own depressions...I
Cant take it so...
Go away just leave me here cause I dont want you to say what I dont want to hear
"We are better off apart than we are together"
No we're not your just scared it cant get any better
But I will die to make it better...so
Stop.. dont let me down, see if you leave now
We could spend the rest of our lives wasting
What time we could have been making...
Making me feel...You make me feel...
Make me feel this way...So strongly...
Scares me...how you could harm me...sinfully scar me...
Jason Parnell
Grudge Kiss
Kiss me dear just one last time
Cause this time I wont let it slide
I caught you living your secret life
It was more than just that one night
So kiss me dear just one last time
So I can finally free my mind
And now this wont be just another fight
Cause "Im Sorrys" shouldnt be said every night
We are just holding onto an old routine
And by holding on we're missing what others are seeing
By letting go we'd be much more better off
So just let this go cause theres been too much stuff
And whatever it is its not worth keeping
See your just confused your minds not thinking
And its wrong for you to drag me along
Its so wrong for you to carry thins on...(so I warn you)...
My emotions are something you shouldnt toy with
When I get angry I can be real selfish
So just kiss me for the last time then go!
You didnt know this, but it was a grudge kiss
That would be the last time, your lips would touch mine
You couldnt feel through, what I was giving you
So now that you know, just let this go...
Jason Parnell
Generations United
Hopeless romantics, the stupid antics of kids, puppy love is what they call it, foolish kids thinking they have the world figured out, it was so easy back then, everything was so clear, so easy, displeasing, but pleasing when all was well which wasnt often, parents never understood the minds of a freshly teenaged kind, that knew everything, we knew everything back then, and I believe that to this day, if we could have just stayed in that mindset, hmmm what we might have accomplished...But no, they shot us down, young, dumb, and full of cum is what they referred to me as, refer to me when Im singing about the things they did wrong...A hopeless generation they said, Damn the nation they said, when the day comes that our daughters will become mothers and our nation will go to hell, but hell, who could tell if things would be worse or not, people just walk down the street and get shot, But it doesnt have to be that way, if we could just fight it, It doesnt have to be that way if we could just get the generations united, the point is we can all make it better, the more different our minds work the more ways we'll have to find answers, young or old, scared or bold, we all have different opions, but dont hate because of difference, we all have the right to state our preference that could help save our world and stop more from being killed...
Jason Parnell
!Oh there!
No, what, huh?...yah dont let me talk
Shes tried to listen before
No you dont know what this is about
Dont try to understand, no dont shout
You cant listen, you cant listen
No just let me go, you werent there
No its not your fault, but just please dont now
Just please dont now
You wont explain what happened
You cant explain what happened...
Why not?...just try...please try...
It doesnt matter if its justified...or not
Just tell me, just tell me
You cant...why?...why not?...
Please please please...
Let me know why stuff turned out this way
Way, why, when, how, yah!!!
Why did you ever say it?
That we could make it...make what? this...yah right
So I know Im here, but where are you?...oh there
Im gone, and your listening to me going away
Away to my personal place...where is yours?...oh there
Where are you at all the time?...oh there... so go there
And Ill be waiting just like before...
Jason Parnell
2-Minute Love Song
Its been a long time coming
All the time worth taking
There were hearts on the way
All the hearts worth breaking
Loves found me now and
Ever sence I cant stop from shaking
This time its for real
All true honest love and no faking
So...
Heres my 2-minute love song to those Ive kept waiting
A 1000 apologies I send to all that have been praying
Its ok dont worry if you dont understand what Im saying
Someday your love song will come and only you will know the making...
Jason Parnell
Infectious
Its the way you'd laugh at me if I was to try...just try
...So emotionally parted
I wish you'd only tell me what made you this way...just say
...I swear I could fix it
...But you keep it distant
I guess the vains from your heart only stretch so far...
Keep you stranded
...you keep yourself abandoned
From my arms...
Its the ways I want you...
...the ways you haunt me
The things I can do...
...the things you cant see...
That affect me...
...infect me..................................
Its the way I'd hold you if you were to fall...just fall
...so awkwardly minded
I wish I'd only whisper in your ear what you need to hear...I'm here
...I could break the silence
...But you keep it quiet
I guess the vains from your heart only stretch so far...
Keep you stranded
...you keep yourself abandoned
From my arms...
Its the ways I want you...
...the ways you haunt me
The things I can do...
...the things you cant see...
That keep me affected...
...infected...infected...
By Jason Parnell
Killer Sky
I look at the sky and see how the stars shine so bright
But how they are scattered about seemingly somehow lost in the night
So many times I've lost myself in this sky
Knowing I'm a star with no purpose
This time I fall and hope that someone will wish upon me and take whats left of a burnt out light
Then I crash into the sea and sink slowly to the bottom until I part
And the smoke rising from the water represents the fire that burned out inside my heart
Even now in the depths of the ocean I still feel the pain whenever a star drops from the sky
Knowing someone else was lost and looked towards the stars to die
And I just wanted out, wanted to breathe and wanted to see what I'd been missing since I'd been pissing my life away all day everyday for that some time
And I looked towards the heavens to find my answers hoping that somehow one would arrive
But once again I was let down for when i looked up
What I found was a killer sky
By Jason Parnell
Stuck in Regrets
Years go by and the regrets grow stronger
If things were done different
Would things have went wronger
Is what is now what is for the best
Some days it doesn't seem that way
The days when I wonder about the rest
Im alone now when I wasnt back then
Sure things werent always perfect
But at least I could say I had a friend
And Ive got to ask myself why this is being brought up
If good choices are to be rewarded
Then where the hell is my gold cup
I lived by the rules and made the choices that were right
And what have I gotten for it
Except hundreds of lonely nights
I look at the others and see them being happy
But they didnt play by the rules
I did so someone explain how can that be
And its these days when lifes not fair
That I wonder why Im even still here
And its the nights when I think of the past
When I wish I could just take it back
Now Im so fucking lonely
I need someone to show me how to move on
And Im so fucking angry
I need someone to save me before Im gone
But Im sinking so fast
Im stuck in Regrets...
By Jason Parnell
Picking A Scabbed Heart
I'm down to my last band aid and the Neosporin tube is dry
It's been over a year and still any hint of you makes it itch and I can't stop from picking it no matter how hard I try
There has been no medicine, no remedy
Not even time can make this sore heal
There are no words or phrases that can be said to express the pain I feel
And whenever I think it's all better
You write me another "I'm Sorry" letter
And...
You got me picking a scabbed heart, it's breaking apart and I'm bleeding you out tonight
I've lost so much blood I'm feeling numb
My own death is in my sight
And I'm going down down down
Feeling faint again
Each day it grows bigger, taking the shape of your name
And unless they amputate and replace my heart
I don't think this scab will ever go away
I wish it would just scar over at least then it wouldn't open and drain out everyday
Cause everytime I pick and peel
I can feel a piece of my life flake away
And whenever I think I'm doing alright
You call me up just to pick a fight
And...
You got me picking a scabbed heart it's breaking apart and I'm bleeding you out tonight
I've lost so much blood, I'm feeling numb
My own death is in my sight
And I'm going down down down
Feeling faint again
By Jason Parnell
Fairy Tale Tragedy
An ancient legend told type story
Of a forgotten boy, who never saw all his glory
And the one true love girl, who was stolen away
Was never rescued, but lived forever in her misery
You see the beginning of this story starts off all the same
With a "once upon a time," a trapped princess, and a dragon that needs slain
But its the ending that changes from a celebration to a disaster
It seems that the "happily ever after" was forgotten in this chapter
Something went wrong and the Knight fell to the day
And his armour didn't shine, for it was rusted by the rain
Now the evil prevails and it rules all of the say
And the one true love girl wonders why she wasn't saved
This time a fairy tale became a tragedy
And the happy ending turned into a lifetime of pain and agony
The boy never came to save the girl from the high tower
Frightened and scared he sat at home in his finest hour
Unable to gather the strength to let his fear be over powered
This is how an unknown hero, was crowned a well known coward
And...
Sometimes fairy tales don't have all their pages
And sometimes hero's get scared of their own faces
Sad and tragic are these rare and few tales
Of true love and heroism that sometimes fail
Jason D. Parnell
Lonely Nights, Sad Days(thoughts from the yesteryears)
There's still some nights you visit me in my dreams
And it is those nights that make me want to believe
That someday I will wake up with you in my bed
And then I realize that I'm dreaming once again
You see it's been so long since I've seen your pretty face
And it was so wrong how you left me at that place
But the wrongs and rights are easy to forget
It's how we just let go so easily is what I regret
Young and stupid, what I knew then
Only got me here
Looking back now, I want to know how
I got through all these years
Just lonely times that words and rhymes
Help me get through
Dead beat tired, of these unispired
Thoughts of finding you
Do I ever cross your mind at any given time?
Do you ever have the feelings, feelings like mine
Is it wrong to look for your future in your past?
I hope not cause these feelings for you will always last
How do I move on and forget the gone?
Leave you where you be
Clean the slate and close the gate
Give up on what I forsee
And with these nights so lonely
And these days so sad
It's the thoughts of the yesteryears
That make me miss what I had
by Jason Parnell
Ready, Set, No!
Starting over one more time
A new beginning for a new life
Trying to forget the heartaches and fights
Hoping to put an end to all the sleepless nights
Forgetting the bad isn't all that easy
Remembering the good isn't always pleasing
Still haunting me in my dreams
Waking up to my own loud screams
So....
I'm back on the starting line
Fire the gun I'm ready to go
Starting over one more time
On my mark, ready, set, no!
Don't do it just take some time off
Girlfriends seem to make the fun stop
This is what my friends always tell me
What do they know they've never had any
So I'm going...
Back on the starting line
Fire the gun I'm ready to go
Starting over one more time
On my mark, ready, set, Oh No!
by Jason Parnell
Algebra Notes
I'm waiting here once agian and wondering if you'll attend or if you'll leave me alone tonight
I haven't told you yet but it seems I have a crush on you
You see I sit and watch you on these nights, I stare at you from behind and every now and again you look back and I get to see your smile
And it's only 2 days a week that I see you and only for an hour or two, and I wish there was more time
I'm not quite sure of your name and I don't know your age, but what does that matter anyway
All I know is....
When your writing those letters and your dialing those numbers I wish they were mine
And when you leave class early and when you rush out in a hurry I wish you were rushing for me
I always try to dress nice, fix my hair up just right and I know a couple of times I've caught your eye
But I just dont have the guts, just the site of you makes me nervous enough and it's not my fault that I'm scared it's just in my nature that I'm shy
And all I know is....
When your writing those letters and your dialing those numbers I wish there were mine
And when you leave class early and when you rush out in a hurry I wish you were rushing for me!
by Jason Parnell
A Classic Night's Daze
I'm lonely now
But no more than I was before
I had to let you go
I couldn't take your lies anymore
So now I try to occupy my mind
But it's filled with empty space
You see these writings are
Just another thing that darkens this place
I know this room is so big
but yet it seems so small
Theres breathing room
but I can't seem to breathe at all
I sometimes sit expressionless
with maybe a slight frown
See it wasn't just you
but my friends that let me down
And now I'm all alone sitting in this place
with a sad sad face
Nothing to do except to sing these sad sad songs
with only my echo to help sing along
I think I've fallen into a black black hole
It seems thats the only place for me to go
My mind keeps boiling up bad bad thoughts
And I sing these songs
to keep from writing my "forget me nots"
By Jason Parnell
The Misconceptions of My Feelings
I'm just looking for a friend
a hangout, a chill
Can't we just talk
without getting too personal
Is this too much for a sore heart to ask?
I just need a break
a vacation, a rest
from all those obligations
that come with those three little words
So please, not to be a dick
but save your breath and
keep those feelings tucked
up inside your head
But I can see it in your face
those wide eyes are filled with emotion
Uh, oh! here it comes,
No wait... I'm warning you,
but it's too late...And
1st time I wish I could forget it
2nd time you waited for me to say it
3rd time now you'll regret it
last time I just want to end it...Now!
And here we are once again
your looking at me in a
weird freaky, happy sort of way
Ohh No!!!, I've been here before
I know what your about to say
Wait... Be careful, dont hold your breath
It might not come back to you
the way that it left!....And
1st time I wish I could forget it
2nd time you waited for me to say it
3rd time now you'll regret it
last time I just want to end it...Now!
And I say...
Please stop it!
why you doing this to me?
I told you how I felt
why couldn't you just let it be?
And now your going to ruin
our perfect shallow relationship
with three little words that
right now to me dont mean shit!
By Jason Parnell
One Good Kid
It's been just lately that I'm beginning to see
Just who is the one real true me
These deep dazes and daydreams that so easily pass the time
Are always awakened by the sound of the same porch wind chime
Analyzing these thoughts I do now understand
But why I had to turn out like this is what I can't seem to comprehend
I've been cheated, I've been tried
I've been wronged, I've been lied
And I can't say I haven't done the same
But thats the catch that you won't grasp in this game
I'll play the part of the boy thats been done wrong
I'll soak up the sympathy and drag it along
I have been hurt, And my souls been scarred
I'm scared to love, And my hearts been barred
But somewhere along the way I grew to cope
I expect this now, so there really is no hope
In a way I like it when I get stabbed in the back
It turns me into the good guy, even after I stab back
So start drama, and send me sadness
Take a shot, and bring me madness
Depress my mind, and set off my anger
Trick my trust, and flip that finger
And this is exactly the way I want it to be
If it didn't happen like this I wouldn't be me
Why it ever started, the answer will never be said
But because of it I'm one good kid, with one fucked up head
By Jason Parnell
Bye Bye Love
The replay button is stuck in my mind
As I can't forget the shit I've been through
But now I sit here uncomfortably silent
Because I know all this pain came from you
What should I do?
You got me on these strings
I'm losing myself again
I've been strecthed beyond my means
Reality bites, so does my so-called life
The real world sucks, and bye bye love
The acts you would put on are far from gone
And I'm just another piece of that puzzle you won't complete
When is it all going to stop? Why do you tell these lies?
I can't believe you looked me straight in the eyes
Now what should I do?
You got me on these strings
I'm losing myself again
I've been stretched beyond my means
Reality bites, so does my so-called life
The real world sucks, and bye bye love
You did exactly what you said you wouldn't do!
And pathetic me, I fell right back in love with you
I'll never be able to find my true self now
I'll always be stuck with you forever somehow
So what can I do?
You got me on these strings
I'm losing myself again
I've been strecthed beyond my means
Reality bites, so does my so-called life
The real world sucks, and bye bye love
By Jason Parnell
This is you knowing Me
How could you say that you knew me
When most the time I was never happy
You laughed at my feelings, and at what I thought
You always said yah, but what I meant you never really got
You never took the time for me to share
All my deepest feelings, cause you didnt care
Just as long as everyone saw you and knew your name
To you our relationship was nothing but a game
So I say.....
This is you knowing me
You couldnt tell I was unhappy
I dont see how you could be so blind
There was no room for love in your material mind
Looking back on those times we had
You couldnt even tell when I was mad
You never knew me, myself, or I
But you said you loved me, just another lie
You made me tag along and agree with your word
When all the lies you told were so absurd
I had to look through your eyes and see your view
Even though the way you saw things was never true
And I say...
This you knowing me
You couldn't tell I was unhappy
I dont see how you could be so blind
There was no room for love in your material mind
By Jason Parnell
Angel Eyes
Your angel eyes are
Full of surprise and I
Cant seem to
Get them to see through
My broken face and
My lack of taste
Your angel eyes are
Blinded by disguise and I
Cant see to
Get them to see through
My broken smile and
My lack of style
So Ill surrender once again
Crawl back into the hole I belong in
Throw my dreams into the fire
Give up on my hearts true desire
Ill close my eyes and dream of you
Cause dreaming is all I ever do
Your angel eyes are
Full of evil lies and I
Cant seem to
Get myself to see through
Your deceiving face and
Your bitter taste
So Ill surrender once again
Crawl back into the corner I belong in
Throw my fate into the fire
Give up on my souls true desire
Ill close my eyes and dream of you
Cause dreaming is all I ever do
Your angel eyes are
Full of cries and I
Cant seem to
Get myself to see through
Your fake smile and
Your smooth style
So Ill surrender once again
Crawl back into the dark space I belong in
Throw my love into the fire
Give up on my destinys true desire
Ill close my eyes and dream of you
Cause dreaming is all Ill ever do
By Jason Parnell
Silence Speaks
Bricks on the wall
Red,white,and true
Living without you now
Speaking words I never knew
Splinters puncture holes
Strings attached to sound
Silence never sounded so good
The writings prove your not around
Time has run out
Theres nothing left to think about
Moving on isn't wrong
I've been here for way too long
Fringed and fraying
Its the story of your life
Piecing back together
What you shredded with a knife
Reflections seen in grayscale
The memories vague and cold
Motions move in fragments
Your stillness always told
Time has run out
Theres nothing left to think about
Moving on isn't wrong
I've been here for way too long
Rusted on the outside
Infested is your heart
Drowned by insecurities
Its now been eaten apart
Confined in dark spaces
Depression takes your mind
Controlled by deception
Bliss will be hard to find
Time has run out
Theres nothing left to think about
Moving on isn't wrong
I've been here for way too long
Now I'll find out
Just how well you'll do without
Moving on isn't wrong
Cause I've been here for way too long
A little song by
Jason Parnell
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